Okay, here's my notes from 4 am: I'm sitting here... doing nothing...

Yikes...
Okay, start over.

I bet you were expecting random thoughts with almost no articulation, but that is not going to happen. I rarely lose articulation before 6-7 am and even then I usually retain most of it. Meanwhile, my words may sound pretty but if you look closer, you will realize it is meaningless. I can say it well, but I do not have the mental capacity to have any kind of purpose or deeper meaning behind my words or thoughts right now.

Here are the highlights from my sleep-deprived mind at four am. For the past three hours, I've been sitting at my computer doing absolutely nothing. Well, that's not quite true. What is true is that I've done nothing requiring more than 2% of my normal brain activity. Since 1 am, I've been reading web-comics, listening to music, and trying to not listen to or watch Chris Ingerson play Devil May Cry 3 on my TV. Now, I realize that on the weekend in the wee hours of the morning, you are supposed to just let your brain shut down, but I can almost feel it atrophying. It's ridiculous! Oh, and did I forget to mention the subtext? I did? Well, let's talk about that then. For the past few days, I've had a moral/mental/everything dilemma that I've been trying to think of a way out of. Unfortunately, there doesn't seem to be a clean exit. The only possible escape routes are the worst possible outcomes I can think of. The only positive outcome isn't really positive at all, and it isn't even plausible for it to happen!

There you go,
Those were my random thoughts.
Go back to that blissful time when you had not the slightest idea of how my mind works.